someone just turned legal enough to gamble in a casino lololol.

happy 21 to my fuffy, aileen!

we celebrated her birthday in advance last march 8 at james’ as usual lololol.

to one of the most beautiful girls i know, hang in there. we may not know why certain things happen to us (atleast not yet), but for whatever reason, always remember that God wants the best for us. we can’t always have our way because it isn’t supposed to be our way to begin with, it will always be His way in His time. but whatever it is that is planned for us, i promise you that it’s way better than what we dream for. remember what i told you, okay? and when you start doubting yourself, i want you to look at yourself the way i see you; smart, strong, and ready. (:

happy birthday foof!! i love you :D

so on the 21st of december — the supposed end of the world, we drank and smoked the night away lol. 

BF central with the girls

then tav to watch the boyfriend play beerpong

then went home at james’ without him there lol. happy end of the world!

it’s that time of the year again when we fly flying lanterns as a goodbye to november and a welcome to december.

and since it has become a monthly thing of ours, basagan + sabogan nights again. 

the only problem with our friendship is that we never got the hang of veering each other away from the things or the people that could possibly hurt us. only because we all have a mutual understanding of letting each other be — so long as what they’re getting themselves into, makes them happy — even if it may be temporary. we just all know that when all else fails, we have each other. 

basagan + sabogan nights with these lovely people again!

meet our cinderella!

upper left: red. lol.

just look at our nguso! so pointy

i always enjoy time spent with these people. i used to enjoy big parties with a lot of people and used to think “the more the merrier”. but really, the less company, the better quality time. 

random fact #66: aileen, my foofie, the one in white, she’s our cinderella. lol. despite her age, she ALWAYS has to go home on or before 12. there were several instances when her parents didn’t even warn her, they’d just show up where we were and pick her up. that included this night. lol. drugs sex alcohol and home before 12. such a bad ass my foofie is!

random fact #67: despite having fair skin, i never turn red. well atleast not until alcohol intoxication. lol. imagine the excitement i felt the first time i was told my cheeks were red when i had my 6th bottle of tanduay ice back when i was still a frosh in college. oh those days hahaha. 

meet my kuyas. the two paolos (paolo p + pao m) and bryan. pao and i go way back in highschool. the other two kuyas, i just met in college through pao. la salle used to have “happy thursdays” where a lot of students go out and drink after a week of school since lasallians don’t have classes on fridays. me and my friends almost always used to go to happy thursdays at GP, beach and rooftop (drinking places near school). i met paolo and bryan at GP through pao, as i’ve mentioned — together with their other friends zim, lowie, gervy, wang, etc. etc.

from the time i met them, drinking with them on happy thursdays became a regular thing. i guess they became my kuyas since out of all the boys, they annoyed the life out of me more and they also took care of me more even if i didn’t need taking care of. zz.

indeed they became more like big brothers than drinking buddies. hanging out with each other during breaks, eating together, going to parties. they even went to my surprise debut! all the way from pasig and cavite, to alabang. (:

random fact #61: i am these boys’ “little sistarr” “katy perry” “katrina” etc.

random fact #62: my formspring was always loaded with questions and rants from haters because of paolo. obviously jealous girls crushing hard on paolo. zzzz.

celebrated james’ birthday on september 14.

mi & bebs, foof & bebs, the bebiboy & bebs

bestfriends (:

now get tired of my face since you’ve been seeing a lot of my friends’. hahaha just look at that pretty face! lol.

the girlfriend and bestfriend!

his girls!

random fact #55: slowly believing what yakee has been telling me for years now. i look prettier without make up. hehehe. tho the only make up i’ve ever regularly used was eyeliner and blush on. no powder, foundation, bb cream, eye shadow.. uh etc. lol.

random fact #56: james and i have known each other since grade 5. i forgot when we started calling each other “bebe/bebs”

random fact #57: james and yakee were my classmates in grade 6. they were bestfriends and they’ve always irritated the life out of me then. who would’ve thought yakee and i would get ourselves into a relationship, and james and i would end up being bestfriends?  lol.

random fact #58: in hs, we used to celebrate birthdays with the whole barkada. all 40++ of us. over the years, we learned that some friends really do fall by the wayside. 

random fact #59: we’re all bestfriends. yes, my boyfriend’s bestfriends with my bestfriends too. (:

so for his birthday, i had three surprises: the mock gift, attending his birthday dinner, and the real gift. 

last august 9, thursday, i met up with my bestfriends to catch up and eat together while we had the time since classes were suspended the whole week and we knew we were gonna be busy the following weeks because of their postponed midterms and my upcoming finals. after eating, they accompanied me to town to get y’s gift wrapped up and to grab a slice of apple caramel crumble pie from bannapple for tita apple (y’s mom). after getting his gift wrapped and dropping by bannapple, we went straight to where tita apple works for me to hand over y’s gift and the apple pie. when we arrived, we did some catching up in the lobby while we smoked. i missed tita so muuuuuch!! after catching up with each other, tita invited us to eat dinner with them on y’s birthday. she told us she was gonna text us about the details soon. 

on august 10, i went to town again to meet with mi and junelle and to buy y’s real gift. i’m not entirely sure if i could tell you what exactly this is, but you’re free to guess! went home with mi since she was gonna sleep over. spent about 30 minutes carving these out. then proceeded with our usual overnight rituals lol.

finally on sunday, august 12, tita apple texted. i ofcourse told her i was going but never told y since it was a surprise. 

but then he just had to text this. zzzz. this boy. lol. anyway, my family and i went to church, had lunch, did the grocery, then they left me at town. while waiting for his family to arrive, y and i had an argument over text and he told me he didn’t want to see me. since i didn’t know what to do or how to tell tita i wasn’t going anymore, i just kept quiet and waited for him to be okay again, and he did. lol. to cut the long story short, it went well. 

went to crisostomo’s to eat! yummmm. 

me, him, and dani! (his younger sister)

the family (:

akiko (the youngest in the family), me, him, dani, tita apple, tito, and kyle (y’s younger brother)

after eating our dinner, the staff surprised him with a cake and by singing him happy birthday (i was actually surprised too. HAHA)

when we left crisostomo’s, we walked around to find him the black polo shirt that he’s been asking for. i enjoyed bonding with his family!

after buying his polo, we went to mcdo to meet with mi! (our bestfriend) we were almost not supposed to see her since y wanted to go home already because he was sick with a fever. poor baby. but he chose to wait since he really misses her a lot. did a little catching up, ate dessert, then went home! his family took me home despite telling them (over and over again) that i could go home by myself. haha i feel so loved by them.

even while we were resting awhile after buying his polo, his sister akiko said the sweetest thing! “aalis na si ate kat?? ate kat, wag ka na umuwi! dun ka nalang samin matulog! :)” haha my heart practically melted.

lastly! on august 13, i asked one of our bestfriends, fuff, to ask one of her friends to hand over y’s real birthday gift in school. i made sure to choose someone y didn’t personally know, just so he’d think the gift was from an admirer — not from me. BUUUT, i failed. zz. 

see?? eitherway, i thanked my bestfriend and her friend. while i was talking to my bestfriend on the phone, she handed the phone to her friend who handed over the gift to y. 

me: kaaaaye!! thankyouuuuu!!!

kaye: hahahaha! no problem!! belated happy birthday sakanya!!

me: hahaha thankyouuuu!

kaye: gwapo ng boyfriend mo! hahahahaha!

me: ..

lol. why do i have to always deal with that?

growing up with this boy (:

random fact #49: i sometimes call tita and tito, mama and papa 

random fact #50: he’s bestfriends with my bestfriends too!

random fact #51: kyle, his younger brother and i share the same birthday hahaha

random fact #52: he used the birthday card for me to allow him to court me years ago lol.

random fact #53: i loooove his family.

dahil masarap maging lasalyano kahit anong mangyari. buong puso magbigay.

my friends and i went to see each other at town today to catch up and decided to watch the DLSU-ADMU game in SanMig Pub.

teng

ravena

start of the game

halftime 

third quarter. i swear it was such an intense and close fight. the moment ateneo led by a few points, la salle immediately caught up and even got to a point where they led by 9 points.

everyone inside smp cheered for la salle. it actually wasn’t that enjoyable at first since all their television’s audio weren’t working, but then everyone cheered for la salle nevertheless.

last 9 seconds. i couldn’t bring myself to take a picture of what was happening around us since we were all praying so hard that we’d win this. but we didn’t. guess it isn’t our time yet.

it’s been so long since i’ve last seen an ateneo-lasalle game that intense. i can definitely say that my university fought a good fight. PUSO. (:

(first and last pictures from The La Sallian)

celebrated my birthday the whole month of july lol. tho i must admit, july wasn’t really my month this year. in fact, it was the worst month for a lot of my friends. intense family problems, broken hearts, financial problems, and graduation problems. and it doesn’t help that it’s been raining the whole month of july. don’t get me wrong, i absolutely love the rain! but i kind of want the sun to shine for me and my friends again. but of course we’ve had good times.

enjoying the view

saguijo bound with the boyfriend and the cousins. sexy line-up, right? can’t even begin to describe how epic the night was! too bad i wasn’t able to take pictures there. i didn’t bring my camera. good thing i didn’t because i swear guijo was so crowded. tho julia clarete of eat bulaga was nice enough to take a picture of us. lol! we felt like we were the celebrity. oh and did i mention we got to enter for free? thankyou, lovely connections.

4 out of x surprise cakes i got for my birthday haha.

i got to blow and wish on a lot of never-ending-candles and cakes!

was surprised with helium balloons from my bestfriends. (been wishing for these babies for the longest time!)

got to sleep and wake up next to this boy a lot.

aaaand, surprise basagan. lol, ohhh july.  

random fact #47: have i mentioned how much i love cake? i love cake.

random fact #48: i’ve been wishing for helium balloons, a lot of them. i love helium ballons!

random fact #48: i’ve always been surprised on my birthday since my sinful 16th. it’s kind of me and my bestfriends’ tradition to surprise each other on our birthdays. see my blog about my 18th! awesome af.

and when i say epic, it really is.

so on july 16, i spent the day with my two brothers at school since paolo told me to watch pao’s basketball game with him, then pao was gonna accompany me to watch cinemalaya in the afternoon.

so sweet these two for spending the day with me. i actually have 3 kuyas in college, the other one was mia that time so meet the two paolo’s. the one in blue, i call paolo. the one in black, i call pao. me and pao go way back since first year highschool!

after watching, my bestfriend pau met up with us in mcdo taft near our school since we wanted to shop in makati, and i had to do a photoshoot of her for her subject, then commit suicide after.

(by suicide, we mean drinking ourselves to death. lol. those were the times when my major subjects were taking their toll on me. that’s why i call it suicide.) we went to james’ house after shooting pau, we ate for awhile, then we drank. after a couple of hours, yakee arrived and drank with us.

so nice to wake up to this boy! lol. the next day, july 17, i had to get ready for a date with my ex, niko (me and yakee weren’t together at that time yet). niko told me he wanted to hang out with me before my birthday. so after taking a bath at pau’s, i got dressed and we ate breakfast.

then niko texted me and told me to wear something nice. i told him i was wearing shorts and a sweater. HAHA. AND THEN, he told me i needed to wear something semi-formal since he had dinner reservations in a hotel. i panicked since i thought we were only gonna eat mcdo at town -_- i told pau i needed to go home and find something appropriate to wear but she told me not to, and offered me some of her mom’s clothes. i borrowed a skirt and a pair of sandals, then we went to town! 

when i met up with niko at mcdo, he told me he wanted to go to army navy first since he wanted to see how it looked like. so we walked. while walking to army navy, we saw the rain slowly coming to us so we ran. buuuut, the rain caught up with us — literally. so we got wet. and we were left stranded in a little shed. the rain looked like it wasn’t gonna stop any time soon, so when niko saw a cab, he hailed it — no questions asked. i found it so impractical since army navy was already so near. like 5 more minutes of walking from where we were -_-

after paying 100 pesos for our cab, we arrived where army navy was and found that it was full so niko suggested we go to yellowcab instead which was found next to army navy. i was getting confused since i didn’t see his point because he was so eager to go to army navy earlier. so i asked him if we were gonna eat there, and then that’s when he told me that he was only waiting for my bestfriends’ go signal. then everything made sense. HAHAHA he told me it’s about time we turn the tables around and surprise the ones holding the surprise.

while waiting for my bestfriends to tell niko to take me to the venue, i realized why we were in yellowcab. the nearest hotel my mom had connections with was parque espana, and i remember niko mentioning it. HAHAHA. i was smiling to myself since weeks ago, i told my mom that i only wanted to have lunch with my bestfriends on my 18th birthday. i admit, i did expect a surprise celebration since me and my bestfriends have held birthday surprises for each other since my 16th birthday. but i never expected all of this!

before realizing what was going on, my bestfriends were still texting me asking how the “date” was going. when i realized it all, i texted them and asked what time me and niko needed to be at parque. all at once, they all stopped texting me. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! after awhile, niko was told to take me up to the venue. it was raining again so we braved the rain. we arrived parque espana semi-wet. LOL. anyway, since i’ve narrated everything i had to narrate, here you go guys! photos!

when we arrived. when my bestfriends saw us, they were all like “SINO NAGSABI?!” hahahaha! 

ofcourse the first on the list was to eat.

a lot of photobooth-ing was done in the duration of the whole debut. lol.

after or i think while eating, they presented a video montage or two. (so that’s why i’ve been seeing ate chrissie viewing all my multiply photo albums!). they also surprised me with a video message from brian del val, my candy cutie, who’s sadly in the states now. ):

after the video montage, these boys sang for me! jason, tom, and papa p! i forgot what they sang tho -_-

and then everyone sang happy birthday for me while making me blow my candles!

and then ofcourse this part; the 18 roses. (:

1. dad
2. yaku (we danced to soulja boy—our ultimate dance song!)
3. kuya paolo
4. kuya bryan r.
5. kuya pao
6. carlo fe
7. bryan e.
8. igo
9. eros
10. jopao
11. papa p
12. jason
13. tom
14. mark uy
15. -
16. ryan
17. james
18. justin

and if you guys are wondering, meet my fifteenth, yakee. (: one of my favorite photos of us.

after the 18 roses came the 18 snapshots. 18 people chose their favorite photo of us and had to tell the reason behind choosing it, along with a message for me. this was so sweet of them to do.

1. ate chrissie (yaku’s girlfriend of 11 years, now his wife)
2. nikki for allen
3. tricia
4. kitch for arlene
5. marian
6. nikki
7. kitch
8. rika
9. pteron
10. apple
11. mel
12. elaine
13. karizzia (probably the most awkward part of the night!)
14. aynna
15. mi
16. foof
17. pai
18. mom

hahaha aww these two (:

lastly, after the 18 snapshots came the 18 shots. my bestfriends, being the party planners, put a twist on it. instead of having shots with 18 people after hearing their wishes/messages, they made me choose 18 people for me to have a shot with and tell them my message for them -_- 

1. mom
2. yaku
3. kitch on behalf of the support system
4. jopao
5. apple and jason (since they are a couple)
6. mark uy
7. bryan e.
8. karizzia, mel, and elaine
9. bryan r.
10. paolo
11. pao
12. igo
13. pteron
14. ate cheng
15. -
16. ryan
17. justin
18. pai, mi, foof

oh and what a coincidence! for the 15th shot, yakee. thank God i have friends who captures the best moments!

i do admit, i was pleasantly surprised by the people who were there. some of them came all the way from pasig, binondo, cavite, marikina, and makati just to make it to my surprise in alabang! awwwww <”:

forever thankful for everyone who made it more special, and for my friends who willingly became my photographers for the night!

i wasn’t able to say goodbye and thank everyone properly since these boys kidnapped me, took me to mcdo, and treated me mcflurry. -_- 

they drove me back to parque, where i had no idea we were gonna spend the night in. surprise surprise! james and pau decided to commit suicide while the rest of us spent the night telling stories, reminiscing, and rough housing in the dark. had no idea what time we slept.

i do remember sleeping next to this boy again. hehehe.

the next morning, july 18, my family and i went to hear mass and buy food for everyone. after eating and resting, we went for a swim while it was raining! 

epic eighteen? obviously. bestfriends? best family? i have them. (:

random fact #12: my bestfriends arranged my 18th with my mom

random fact #13: 2 weeks before the surprise, i asked nikki and kitch to accompany me to forever 21’s opening, but for some reason, they declined. so i got upset. a week before the surprise, some people started asking me what my plans were for the weekend (july 16) and i never gave a definite answer. i had no idea they were already panicking because they had no idea where i was gonna be on the 16th since they originally planned a mock party for me at pai’s place before the actual debut surprise. HAHAHA. but then my bestfriends knew i couldn’t say no to my ex back then. hence “the date” -_-

random fact #29: my bestfriend justin originally planned to stage a kidnap. some of his friends i haven’t met yet were supposed to “kidnap” me at town and take me to parque, complete with blindfold and ropes. mom didn’t approve of it tho. boo!

random fact #30: my highschool barkada consists of 40 boys and about 10 girls

random fact #31: my bestfriends and i have been surprising each other since my 16th birthday.

random fact #32: i call my college barkada my support system — because they literally are.

random fact #33: my eighteenth birthday was celebrated x years ago. lol.

i’m sure no one’s gonna understand the title, but this is basically a blogpost for my bestfriend’s birthday. we went to tagaytay first to eat dinner at giligan’s,

then we talked over coffee at bag of beans. (hi mi! if you’re reading, i’m sorry if i stole this from your twitter!) it was actually a great night to spend with the best. the mood was right, it wasn’t hot or too cold, and the moon was a pretty sight to see since it appeared bloody orange that night, and we had a great view.

after a couple of hours of catching up and reminiscing about high school and figuring out how some things went wrong, we all decided to go to my place to.. ..relax. hmhmhm.

justin gave her half a dozen cupcakes that he bought from midnight snacks. you guys should totally check out their facebook page. the owner’s a batchmate of ours and her cupcakes are actually yummy!

meet my bestfriends!

yes those are bananas. re-defining “banana cake”. we spent the rest of the night at our rooftop. 

most decent picture i could find of james. he arrived about 10 minutes before 12 midnight so he made it to aileen’s birthday.

basically sums up how our celebration ended and why i couldn’t post much of the pictures i took that night. lol.

they got a hold of my camera the next day. (: i’d post pictures of james, y, and i too, but we still looked pretty.. sleepy. so i won’t bother haha.

to aileen, my foofie, this may be late, but happy birthday! though we’ve come to learn that even the promise we’ve held on to out of a few can be broken by someone we’ve trusted for years, my promise to you is still very much true and will never be broken. being your bestfriend means guaranteeing you that you’d never have to go through anything alone for the rest of your life. and i promise you really won’t have to. i got you, no matter what. (: 

random fact #24: aileen and i call each other foofie because of the movie madagascar.

random fact #25: i call mi (daph) mamabear or mi, and she calls me bebey. it’s our thing, it’s actually inexplainable.

random fact #26: james and i call each other bebe. we go way back in grade 5 lol.

random fact #27: justin calls me amiga and i call him amigo. 

random fact #28: i share more or less 6 years of friendship with these people (including the boyfriend). they definitely are my bestfriends.

one of the many pictures i shot of her for my photo journalism class. we were assigned to do portraits! isn’t my bestfriend just so pretty?

make-up, photography, post-processing by me.

random fact #18: taking portraits would definitely be my weakness in photography.

nevermind the shame we feel from the fact that we lost our bestfriend to her boyfriend, because it’s as much as our fault as it is hers but it’s really more the pain of losing what we thought would last a lifetime. it really is sad and difficult to actually experience, learn, and accept that even the friendship with the most solid foundation can fall apart. nevertheless, life goes on and it will not stop for us to have a little time for ourselves to be mad and see where we went wrong. the show, as they say in my industry, must go on. (: